my college life...chapter-3

4th june 2009,

12:57 am

Chapter-3  "The Secret Of Second Year"

As my first year ended i remember..i promised myself that one thing wont be repeated in second year and that was my low attendence and i was ready to show everyone who actually i was....but someone else had some other plans....just after my second year classes commenced...what followed was a whole lot of emotions and tragedies and love...and hate....tears..!!

I never thought things could go so horribly wrong for me...i loved someone....she loved me too...but she betrayed me..29th aug 2006 was the date when it all changed and post that it was all chaos..and full on emotional drama....

Because of the unexpected twists in my personal life....my college life suffered...i thought of being regular but i just could not turn my thoughts into actions....of the given 90 days for third semester i went to college only for mere 5 days....yeah only for five days and that includes two mid semesters...the emotional trauma i was going through stopped me from attending classes....my birthday that year was the worst day of my life.....it was as if whatever i was supposed to do had to fail...i was supposed to be on the wrong side of things at that time...i was hurt...my love ditched me....my parents werent cooperative either....and who was the sufferer for all this...my college life....if there has to be any reason why i am not that close to my college and my classmates it has to be this..

I never told this to anyone...many belive i was being careless at that time but i know what all i went through....the great dons of the city calling me and abusing me..threats from them to me and my family...life was hell at that time...three months with tears...three months with a broken heart....still i was living...i dont know how but i was...

But the show must go on..........one thing though i gained from that period was good marks....since i wasnt going to college i was spending most of my time in either sorting out my problems or studying....i used to leave my house saying to my parents im going to college but once they use to leave the place for their work..i used to come back within an hour...but even during that one hour i used to study...yeah...i did study while i was bunking my college...i still remember sitting in a parking area and studying instrumentaion...from sawhney...all this had to effect my result and the result was that i got 345 theory marks something that is considered to be stupendous in our university....though i sucked in sessional marks but my theory marks did impress many....so atleast there was something i gained from that terrible time....

 somehow final half of second year was better for me...i got close to my college...2007 probably brought a new life with it for me....made new friends...was still hurt but started coping up with it....i still remember if at all i was most agitated and irritated it was during that time....but that is how life is...though i did not face the situation boldly but i did not even give up like a coward..

by the end of second year i found myself a bit more close to my college and college friends..anand,aanjaneya,bedi,rupesh,romil,rituraj and ofcourse rahul....i got a bit more close to them..and found that life is not that tough..sorrows are a part of it and luckily i handled them with great care and affection.....!!

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so that was my secret i dont know whether anyboby knew that but since i promised to tell you all about my college life i had to tell this as well.i think this was the biggest reason why i find myself to be away from my college.....and college life..some instances tend to change your life drastically and this happened to be one of those...anyways the darkest cloud has silver lining...as i was loosing love during all this time i was gainig friends slowly but surely a group of friends is what i had...which came to be known as Intellectual Idiots...so the formation of "ixi" and my placement period all that in my next post...till then

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cheers...