Mid Term Preparations....

Well its 24th of Feb and in a week's time I have my mid semesters...lots to study...but don't know why I am not able to be friends with books...

they say every day is a new day...and that the darkest cloud has sliver lining....where is the silver lining in the cloud above me...still searching...when will that new day come...still waiting...every day i look at the sun thinking today it has brought something new for me....something that would make me happy...that it has risen for me...indicating a new day..a new beginning.....

but....by the time it sets.....it is the same...as it sets...my hopes to be happy...to be smiling from the bottom of my heart sets and fades....the eyes which were full of enthusiasm and hope in the morning...are left with nothing but few tears...

and to add to it there comes a dark and lonely night...few moments of joy and fun are there but not much to keep the spirits high...

missing my family...my friends...my city....i am missing my very own people....being the pampered child and a friend i have been it is a bit tough to cope up with loneliness.. i have always found my friends there for me whenever i am a bit sad..be it rahul....krishna....vaibhav or shereen...and to not have either of them here is painful...few days back i did write about my present dear and loved friends...but i guess my own words backfired....and as they say it in hindi...."shayad meri hi nazar lag gai"...

but again..it is a learning phase...a bit long though...

well importantly as i said...mid terms are approaching....and i am not spending any time with so called best friends of mankind i.e books instead there is something running in my mind...something i have been thinking of and i guess i am starting to get the leads...more on this in my next post...till then just to tell you all... mid terms are approaching :)

yahoo...yahooo....

cheers...!!!

A Dream....Broken..!!!

You made me dream,

you were my dream,

you owned my dreams.

and now that you are gone,

i have no dream...

suddenly i have no reason to live,

suddenly i have nothing to give.

it was a dream,that i was living,

you were dream,

that has been broken...

you were my smile,

you made me smile,

you owned my smile.

and now that you are gone,

i have no smile...

suddenly i have no reason to smile,

suddenly i have a zeal to die.

it was a dream,that i was living,

you were dream,

that has been broken...

a corner of my heart,still beats for you,

the whole of my soul,is all about you.

your smiling face,bring tears to my eyes

that dream i lived..died...

you made me love,

you were my love,

you owned my love..

and now that you are gone,

i have no love...

suddenly i have no reason to love..

suddenly i have no one to love..

it was a dream,that i was living,

you were dream,

that has been broken...

you are still there,but not the same as before,

the way you cared,the way you adored....

you meant so much to me,but never did I to you....

i always valued you,but never did you...

you have a world to live for,share and smile with...

but my world was you...

it was a happy world , i was living in,

you were my world..

that is no longer mine...

it was a dream,that i was living,

you were dream,

that has been broken...!!!

yahoo yahoo..

cheers..!!!

And D blogging continues...."My Valentine"

14th Feb 2011...yes valentines day..a day to celebrate love with your love...and i was alone...as my love was a bit upset with me...was not talking to me....rather I was the one to quit it...running away from it...and many tried to persuade me but the egoist i am I didn't listen to any...but the stupid I am I had to revert back to it...yes how can I leave something that I love so much....I had to come back to it...yes I had to come back to blogging...

it really is strange how you start getting more things to write about when you decide that you wont write anything....

it was really a heart touching feeling when many of my friends said that i shouldn't quit writing (who doesn't want few words of praise ;) ..)

well now to be more factual about 14th Feb....yes the day passed away just like any other day I thought of few proposals but all in vane..sometimes I feel rather I worry that the only partner I will have will be this blog only.. :) poor me..!!!

well talking about 14th Feb i overheard someone saying .... that everyday is a valentine day and that you do not need any one particular day to express your love ...to those i would say...asking the flowerists...the gift shopkeepers....the chocolate makers.....how important is valentine day....just kidding.....well on a serious note yes you do not need any one particular day to celebrate love....but i am sure no one would dislike the fact that they have a reason to celebrate...to smile together...to be happy...just reminding your valentine how much he/she means to you...how lonely will you be without him/her...it is not a day to celebrate your love or telling your love that you him/her...

it is a day where you remind your love that you are there with him/her...you still love him/her...and that you will always be there for him/her...just a day to remind and celebrate and treasure few moments.....treasure few moments....so that 10 years down the line you would have something to relive...something to smile for...something n someone to look up to and say... "I still love you"

as far as my valentine goes....i am more then happy that I am back to it...and that it has accepted me (it had no other choice... ) but a real valentine...still unavailable....may be she (wherever she is) would turn up some day saying I do not need a 14th Feb to express my love...and I would succumb to her...because there is nothing I can argue with her...!!

yahoo yahoo

cheers...!!

Last Post..!!!

There is a day when I feel she and I are on the same page...and then comes a day when "if I'll be the first page..she'll be the last.."

The lines may well be giving you indications that the thing and disease called "love" has attacked me..

this post might well be a tough one to handle...and the consequences even tougher...

well...yeah i don't sit beside my window at nights and look up to the moon trying draw her face..

i don't give up food when she is angry (food...in any case i wont give up on)...the love for chocolates and a poets' name is what I already have..(people become poet when in love or at least they feel so...others call them by the name *******)

Then still I deny the fact that this is love..strange but true...love...

I get perplexed when I try to define this thing called "love"... a mother loves her child unconditionally...without even being informed she would come to know that her child is in pain..

similarly a father loves his child.... prays for his success and unlike mother who takes on the Creator for her child..a father fights with the world to provide everything what the child dreams of...

a teacher loves his students (i mean it in a more human way ) wants them to excel in a particular field...tells them what not to do.. (rather then telling them what to do) through his experience..

and finally the definition you were waiting for..

"love.. is the most beautiful gift of God to mankind.. for me love is not holding hands and sitting in the darkest corner of a garden (I am being too liberal by saying just 'holding hands')...it is not about showing off in front of many by being her puppy... it certainly does not mean being physical...

If I was to define love it would be... there is nothing called love..all I want is to see is a smile on your face...all I want is to take care of you..."be the sun" in your darkest times and just a part of your good times...a shoulder to cry upon and a wall to bang on...

if keeping one happy and smiling is what love is...then yes may be I am in love...

it is painful to say this but...this is my last post...as I quit blogging...writing never was my cup of tea..but as usual tried my hands on it...and as I write my final few lines in this blog..I must say ..

"love too is not my cup of tea...and when I tried my hands on it..... it burnt.."

for one last time..

yahoo yahoo...

cheers..!!!

To Dual-D...

7 months before when I started this journey at SBS...it was supposed to be a journey...but it is turning out to be a voyage...

In this battle with egos....with personalities...with my own self... I have found few souls which I would savor for the rest of my life...

Honestly I didn't expect to find true friendship in a MBA institute...but as it turns out to be I am more then privileged to be a part of a class which is far away from "group-ism"....I am proud to be a part of a group which has no relationship with the words "ego" and "selfishness"

Let me talk about BITM Dual-D(Marketing and Finance) many of the experts said that too much of group-ism exists in this class..but the reality is something very different we are a unit.The institute named us as Promoters but i would call us as the Differentiators...a division that creates a difference when it come to BITM 10-12 batch....

If I say that there exist no differences between us..would be wrong....yes with 55 personalities you are bound to have few rifts and frictions...but who says there are no rifts between two of the closest friends as well...

Be it winning the cultural with some "tashan"..be it helping not only our classmates but other duals as well in Bam Sir's 1 week of fun and masti...be it celebrating every birthday with eggs,cold drinks and yeah of course cake... be it for that poor guy who would get beaten up for a gal on her bday...Dual-D comes across as a class with full of energy and unity.

At times I do feel it is way too childish....but what is the harm in being able to live in your childhood for ever as that is the most innocent and joyful stage of life... I am proud to be a part of it and I don't think I would forget this batch for a long long time....

Coming to the close friends of mine...every time I would be sad I would find someone siting beside me trying to make me smile... Prakhar,Ankita,Safalta,Pragati,Sagar,Prakash,Shruti,Ankana,Anshita,Mohit,Vikas,Rishabh..it is one hell of a group...be it Prakhar's endless talks....Ankita's innocence...Safalta's care...Pragati's super rocking jingles....Sagar's ease of communicating....Prakash's deadly expressions....Shruti's simplicity...Ankana's anger (though she is not that short tempered but she always scares me.) Anshita's awesome macho-manism(which even I don't possess) Mohit's promises...Vikas's cool attitude and Rishabh's spontaneousness reactions....these do bring smile on my face on the very gloomy and dark days of my life....life would have been a black hole without you guys, here...if at all I am what I am it is more because I have such beautiful souls around me...too senti a stuff...but that is the way it is..last but not the least how can I forget Nikita..she though is not a part of Dual-D but has been a very good friend...someone whom I have always relied upon...

I thought of making this blog a humorous one but couldn't..I guess that is the effect of friendship...the moments I have shared with these guys are invaluable...hard to think of one special moment..as every moment has been a special one...

god bless you all...(bhubhu lil senti hehe :-)..)

Yahoo yahoo...

cheers....