my college life....Chapter 5...

10th june 2009,

9:50pm....

Chapter-5  "Me and Linkin Park's In The End"

After passing out 12th with flying colours i thought studies in college wont be that tough...but everything does not go according to plans....it was in 12th only that i last saw 70+ percentage in my mark sheet...the highest i scored in any subject in all these four years is 85..in a subject which i studied in 3rd semester(long back haan)..the best i could get in all these four years is 69% that was even further back in 2nd semester..so that kind of sums my graph in studies...but i was sure of one thing that though i didnt do well in exams, i was bound to do well in my placements..for that i even got myself trained for three months...three months of exclusive hard work...i never ever bunked during my training hours....something which was astonishing...i was serious..many had expectations..moreover many had firm belief that i would crack a good company...and i knew deep inside that i was capable of doing it...i polished my positive points...got over some of my weakneses...but in the end it did not matter..

Firstly i could not crack even a single company..though i cleared the first stage of few..but could clear the succeding stages....

Secondly if anything else was remaining it was completed by the bloody recession...which hampered the recrutiment plans of many MNCs...

so here i am still jobless....i still do get hurt...because i tried hard...i tries hard for campus...but my fate wasnt with me....

i tried hard in my semester exams but my faculty wasnt with me.....

so that always used to remind me of Linkin Park's following lines which strangely found a very special place in my heart....

"It starts with one thing 

I don't know why 

It doesn't even matter how hard you try keep that in mind 

I designed this rhyme 

To explain in due time 

All I know 

Time is a valuable thing 

Watch it fly by as the pendulum swings 

Watch it count down to the end of the day 

The clock ticks life away 

It's so unreal 

Didn't look out below 

Watch the time go right out the window 

Trying to hold on, but didn't even know 

Wasted it all just to watch you go 

I kept everything inside and even though I tried, it all fell apart 

What it meant to me will eventually be a memory of a time when 

I tried so hard 

And got so far 

But in the end 

It doesn't even matter 

I had to fall 

To lose it all 

But in the end 

It doesn't even matter..."

Words which i find very close to me...somehow i have this strange way of connecting myslef to the lyrics of a song or the characters of a movie and i found this very close to me..i did try hard and my theory marks do tell this story but what matters is the overall result..... theory marks dosent even matter.....so in brief i sucked in studies....my parents had lot of expectations but could not stand on them...but i do not regret much...this has been the ultimate gift of college life to me...the change in attitude...so marks or no marks..it doesn't even matter...!!

*****

well this was about the most important part of college life..atleast it should be important it never was though and as towards the end i said the ultimate gift of college life has been the change in my attitude towards things...i truely believe in that that along with someother gifts in the next chapter..till then

Yahoo...Yahoo...

Cheeersss...