nothing to say...it really is gloomy..

Well there are phases in one's life...when you feel that you are the loneliest person in this world...you wish to spend most of the time with your own-self and the world almost comes to an halt...and yeah all the sad songs suddenly seems to me just made for you...situations like these when one fight to smile for every second....fights to be just calm every moment....fights to be himself every second...keeps on telling himself not to get bob down and be depressed...get over of it soon....and i will get over of it...but eventually thinks of the same...and trust me...it is tough to come out of such a situation...

they say cricket brings the entire nation on to a single stage....but even an indian win over the arch rivals in the semi finals of a world cup couldn't lift my spirits...strange but true...there stands a big barrier between me and my family...i say this for the first time on a public stage..and it hurts when i see people having great relations with their family...and I hardly talk to them for 10 minutes..while others would go on for hours...it is not that I DON'T LOVE them it is just that the relation never got to that level...and friends...yes i do have...but those who really love me...are far from me...and whom i trusted....are again far from me...it hurts...it does...and as i said every moment it is a fight with the biggest enemy....that is the negativity that has sufferer my thinking...my ideology...and a fight which I am loosing...i see friends with me...but it just isn't enough...fight is still on...and it will take time...really a long time....being a bit filmy...i need an angel (preferably female) hehe..wow...i managed to smile...how to end this post because there is so much i can write...yeah my writing skills enhance big way when i am sad...and yeah i am..

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cheers..

After d Disaster..!!

well when the country was discussing about the union budget and all the pros and cons of it...when every cricket fan was glued to the t.v. sets watching their teams perform on the biggest platform....when japan was awestruck with the biggest disaster mankind has faced from a century....I was fighting my own battle....yes mid terms....finally over....papers were the same as the union budget asking for prolonged discussions (especially the ET part)...pressure though was not the same as performing in the world cup...but yeah it did made me to be awake the whole..and yeah many papers left me with a question mark..!!

but as the mid terms ended came a great news.....holidays....now that was a tsunami...out of the blue...and the next day i was at home...now what i am doing at home....sleeping,eating and again sleeping.....

i will be honest in saying that yeah...i am missing my college...got so used to it that now m own bed is not able to hold me..!!

i was sad there...as i was missing my family....i am sad here....as i am missing my life....what a sad personality i have turned into...

anyways.....half the battle is won...but the climax still remains...terms starting soon...this post is just like that sitting on my pc.....having no idea of what to do...no one to chat...no one to talk...so a perfect scenario to write a blog..!!!

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cheers...!!