Tuesday, March 29, 2011

nothing to say...it really is gloomy..

Well there are phases in one's life...when you feel that you are the loneliest person in this world...you wish to spend most of the time with your own-self and the world almost comes to an halt...and yeah all the sad songs suddenly seems to me just made for you...situations like these when one fight to smile for every second....fights to be just calm every moment....fights to be himself every second...keeps on telling himself not to get bob down and be depressed...get over of it soon....and i will get over of it...but eventually thinks of the same...and trust me...it is tough to come out of such a situation...
they say cricket brings the entire nation on to a single stage....but even an indian win over the arch rivals in the semi finals of a world cup couldn't lift my spirits...strange but true...there stands a big barrier between me and my family...i say this for the first time on a public stage..and it hurts when i see people having great relations with their family...and I hardly talk to them for 10 minutes..while others would go on for hours...it is not that I DON'T LOVE them it is just that the relation never got to that level...and friends...yes i do have...but those who really love me...are far from me...and whom i trusted....are again far from me...it hurts...it does...and as i said every moment it is a fight with the biggest enemy....that is the negativity that has sufferer my thinking...my ideology...and a fight which I am loosing...i see friends with me...but it just isn't enough...fight is still on...and it will take time...really a long time....being a bit filmy...i need an angel (preferably female) hehe..wow...i managed to smile...how to end this post because there is so much i can write...yeah my writing skills enhance big way when i am sad...and yeah i am..

yahoo yahoo
cheers..

2 comments:

  1. Have u ever wondered how "they" r feeling being so aloof from u ?....how mawkish they found themselves when they get back home from there work ?, how prosaic and boring would be there weekends n festivals ?...atleast u r having an advantage of new frnds,new place,new desires......but they r still managing through there ordinary life.......sorry to say dear but as much i know both of u........i will certainly say that : "they r missing u to a far far much more extent then that of u, the only difference is that they r neither expressing it n nor will they express it further !! " ......n may be that's y m having lots of regards n love for them n can proudly say that m having my parents in bhopal too....:-)

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  2. saale chal peene baithte hai....

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