At Times...!!

Writing after a long time and struggling with words..

at times i feel that i have lost something which i possessed and was totally mine...

at times i feel loosing that and gaining something is not that bad either...

at times i feel that the kunal i was , was a mask....

at times i feel there is a need to wear a mask now...

with placements season already started...

at times i feel it is time for joy and share happiness of others..

at times i feel it is time for deep inspection....

at times i feel it is so beautiful to taste the tears of joy...

at times i feel it might also bring the tears from a broken heart...

at times i feel that will the history repeat itself...and the horrors of the past follow me..

at times i feel that will there be a new page added to my book....

with many getting placed....and seeing atleast 5 daily facebook updates...

at times i feel it is time to pack the bags as i stand very less chance...

at times i feel..it is time to unpack some of the abilities and show what i am made of...

at times i feel that are my actions justified....

at times i feel yes they are....

with people throwing so many questions and allegations on me and my character...

at times i feel that m i really that bad...

at times i feel who the hell are they to decide that....

at times i feel why should i answer every question that is fired at me...

at times i feel why should reply back to the fingers pointed at me....

at times i feel i should let everyone know what the truth is....

at times i feel it is time to prove that i am not selfish...

with things happening at such an ugly pace...

at times i feel where did the time run away....

at times i feel why cant i run away...

at times i feel why the clock is moving so slowly...

at times i feel i just can be lonely...

at times i feel that my biggest strength were words...

at times i feel my strength only is my biggest weakness....

at times i feel...words with whom i was so good in playing...

at times those same words have turned out to be playing with me....

at times i feel this is just a "time" a "phase" that will pass away..

at times..i feel success is on my way....

at times that "way" seems to be too long...

at times i feel so bloody "down"....

it is just at times i feel so....

it is just at times...i feel so low....