Born 2 b Lonely..!!!

I have had at times nothing to write , yet i have written and this is a time , where i have so much to tell but I just can't....

Some feelings cant be expressed....somethings better remain unexplained and to oneself....

last year almost the same time i was getting myself ready for this journey to MBA and this as a part of this voyage...i am undergoing rigorous schedule and training period....at times I think of ways of running away from it....but then where will i run as this is the only thing that has been able to keep me emotionally stable so far..

m learning....not only at intelligence level...but also at emotional level...that is why i call this a learning phase...

in last 20 days....had some shocking moments....some moments to cherish...some moments of pain...some dull moments.....some moments of fun...

cooked food,travelled a bit (by local bus hanging half outside risking my life)...its been a great time..and it sounds adventurous and sounds as if i am having a gala time here...but i doubt that....took 4 years to complete graduation but i hardly miss my class and its been less than a year in MBA and a period of 2 months is what m not able to live without them....one hell of a group here...!!!

meanwhile....few lines and in my eyes this would be 1 of my best...

when i first came in this world,

i had a loving mom,caring dad...

when i went to school,

i had a bunch of friends,

i had a charming smile.

when i first went to college,

i had my love......and a bright future ahead...

the problem now,is nothing but

the words "I Had"...

now when i look aside,

i see no one walking with me,

now when i look back.

i see memories haunting me....

i see no friends...

i see no family....

i think i was born to be lonely....

came with thousands , in to a world of thousands...

just to be lonely....

when i first learnt to walk....

if i stumbled , i had someone to take care of me.

when i first learnt to speak,

i had someone to correct me.

i can now run miles all alone,

i can now speak amongst thousands alone...

but i still miss those helping hands,

i still miss those caring eyes...

but the problem is nothing but...

the two words "I Had"

now when i fall , i stand back on my own,

now when i stutter , i speak to my own..

i had so many who loved me...

but all moved away from me...

i think i was born to be lonely....

i think i came with thousands , in this world of thousands....

just to be lonely....

in sometime from now , when i will fly high...

i doubt i will have someone to fly with me...

in life now , when i will smile....

i wish i will have someone to smile with me....

sometime from now when i die...

i wish i will have someone to hold me back...

the problem now is again with ,

two words "I Have"..

now when tears roll down my eyes,

i see very few understanding them...

now when i smile...i see very few realizing the pain behind the same....

i think i was born to be lonely...

came to this world of thousands....with thousand

just to be lonely...!!!